What is Your Life For

Every so often a perfect storm happens. They are a perfect storm of ideas for me. Lately, I’ve heard from Shane Claiborne (I have his first book, but haven’t read it yet). I read Let My People Go Surfing by Yvon Chouinard, while reading The Resurrection of the Son of God. And watching the finale of Battlestar Galactica created this really weird confluence of thoughts in my head. I find all these are very romantic and persuading ideas. They pull hard on your soul, they force you to feel, force you to recognize the short-comings, and the high calling to which each person has within them.

We have a drive within us – no matter how much we’ve suppressed it with our rationalizations, faults, mistakes, and fears. We have a drive to do what we love. Sometimes we need to find out what we love, and we all should. I don’t have a concrete idea yet either. But I have a good feeling it involves pushing yourself to the edge. Encountering your limit, learning something about yourself, and about the world in which you live.

We have so many edges. I’m on the way to pushing myself to the edge physically. Gearing up for a long summer of Ultimate takes it toll, and I’m certainly not there yet, despite the fact that I’m already faster than I was last summer. I’ve pushed myself past my personal edge as well. I’m well beyond anywhere close to who I was. I long to be able to push myself professionally. Currently I’m just trying to get caught up to what I’ve had in the past working environments. From there I’ll be in new territory. I’ll be pushing myself religiously/spiritually when I get to school as well. I can’t wait to be pushed there.

In the future I hope I can use who I become to help others realize they need, and can push themselves. I find myself amazed that people aren’t interested in living their life in such a way to come out changed. If your life results in zero change, what was it’s purpose?